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Month: January 2017

Bless Me

Dear Lord,

I know that there are blessings too many to count that You would love to give me, and I know that I fail to come to You and ask for them because I limit myself. Please forgive me this day my weakness and fear and please shower on me the blessings I have not had the wisdom or courage to ask for, the blessings that You created just for me.

I know that You created me in Your image and that You have prepared for me a wonderful life and a personal destiny, I know too, Lord, that my weakness and my fear keeps me from that life, from the fullness of Your will. Forgive me, today, for staying in my small little world, for limiting myself and in so doing limiting Your glory. I pray for Your will in my life, to reflect You in all I do.

Please open Your heart to me this day, please be gracious to me, please use me, today, to carry Your blessings into the world I live in. Please expand my world to include all that You would have me see, please use me, mold me and strengthen me to be Your true disciple. Please bless me, Lord, so fully, that I can see Your hand as clearly as my own. Please bless me, and grant me confidence and assurance that You are with me, that the path I follow is the path You have laid out for me. Please use me and bless me in this journey, so that I can be called Your child. Please forgive me my hesitations, my doubts, my fears.

Bless me, expand my influence in Your service and bring me to a place where my faith can flourish and I can be a better servant, for I am Your child, Your servant and Your disciple.

Here I am, Lord…

Your humble servant, through prayer and petition, awaiting Your call, please bless me with the wisdom to know, the ability to see and hear Your call and the faith to answer.

Amen

New Year, New Promise

When the clock strikes twelve and a new year begins a lot of people have grand ideas about how this year will be their year. They will write that novel, lose that weight, find that love, cut those strings, leave behind their bad habits and poor choices and pick up good habits, make good choices. But, why, what is so magical about the stroke of midnight that makes people believe that every bad thing will be set aside and life will instantly be better? Or to go further, why then do we wake up on January 1 and expect all the things we promised ourselves the night before to have suddenly come to pass with no effort or attention on our part. New Years sets us up for failure all too often, as we see it as a line in the sand, here I am, tomorrow I will be on that side of the line and I will find the courage, strength, drive, ambition, whatever it is I need to make my dreams come true. Then we sleep in on January first, often sleeping off a night of drinking and we wake up groggy and wondering why our lives haven’t changed.

This year can be different, this year can see those promises made to ourselves come into being, but only if we do them. Only if in faith we step forward and do what needs to be done. We can lose the weight, maybe write the novel, it is harder than some people think, we can leave behind the things that we know are no good for us, we can improve our relationships, we can be better people. We have to really want it though. We have to spend the time and energy, and we have to have the faith that with Christ all things are possible. We have to accept that we might need a little divine intervention on occasion, we need to pray, and pray some more and rely on God and the people who God places in our lives.

Jesus told us to ask, seek, knock. So, maybe we should be doing that. This year I will daily knock on the door and invite Jesus to join me on the journey, to come along with me, to be beside me, to go before me, to surround me and strengthen me, to keep me on the right path. This year I will seek out the opportunities He places in my life to serve Him and His people, I will seek out the path He would have me walk, I will seek His will for my life, and in seeking, I will find and I just might write that novel or book, if that is His plan for my life. This year I will be bolder, I will ask for what I want, I will ask for guidance, I will ask for blessings, I will ask for help, I will ask. When the clock strikes twelve every night, a new day begins, and this year I will see each new day as a new chance to be who I am meant to be, and I will not worry about yesterday, and I will not worry about tomorrow, and I will not worry, because I will once again knock and invite Christ to walk with me, each day. I do not have a New Year’s resolution, I have a daily resolution, a new day resolve, a new view of life, each day is a blessing, and I will walk through this year in that knowledge.

 

Dear Lord, 

Please bless me today and every new day with renewed faith and hope, with renewed focus and ambition to be Yours. Bless me with the gifts necessary to do Your will, to follow the path You have placed before me. Remind me daily to knock, and invite you to come along with me, to seek Your will, to ask for your blessings. Remind me that each day is a new day, a new chance, a new moment, and bless me in those days, in those moments, in the path, so that I will be who You want me to be, who You are making me into. In the name of Jesus Christ, my Savior and Your blessed Son –

Amen

Ending One Year And Beginning A New One

When 2016 began I weighed a remarkable 283.6 pounds, I was eating poorly, drinking a lot of diet cola and not exercising. I was slowly and with little regard for the truth, killing myself. By the last day of 2016 I had given up my diet cola addiction, I had completely changed the way I eat and the way I view food, and I was exercising daily and looking forward to adding to my workout routine. So, I ended 2016 a full 90 pounds lighter than when I started, for those of you who can’t do the math that fast, that means that when I woke up on new years day 2017 I weighed roughly 193.4, a little over 90 pounds lost. I am now 4 days into the new year and down a little more, I weighed 192.6 this morning, which is a 91 pound loss since starting this journey. I began this journey on April 28, 2016.

I met a woman at the store not that long ago, and when I knew the exact day I started on this path, she pointed out that I sounded like an addict who had given up something. In a way, I feel a bit like an addict that has given up something. Certainly my diet cola habit was an addiction, when I went without for more than a day I would get headaches. Certainly the fact that I craved sweets and junk food, and not the healthy options, meant that my eating habits had turned from nourishing to filling some other need, some addiction that I had developed over time. So, maybe I am a recovering addict, but food, unlike most addictions people get through, can’t be shunned forever, food is necessary and isn’t evil or the enemy, even if sometimes it seems that way. The addiction then must be conquered in a world where I will forever be exposed to food. I am no longer an addict, I no longer crave the garbage and junk food, I no longer crave or am even tempted to drink the diet cola, I am not interested in the sweets or artificial sweetener that brought me back for more over and over in a constant cycle of unhealthy eating and drinking that only left me wanting more and weighing more.

I know this is my path, and that it isn’t for everyone, and it might not even work for everyone, we are all of us individuals, my new goals are to continue on this journey, to keep losing weight and to getting fit and to building strength and stamina. My new goals are to being more active, every day, to learning more about what it means to live a healthy lifestyle, to living as clean as I can. My new goals are to not become that know it all, who will tell you every mistake you are making in your life, who will lecture you about your choices in that overbearing way, because I gave up what you still do. I am not looking to jump on a bandwagon and spout off about how my way is the best way, or the only way, or what everyone should be doing. This is my lifestyle choice, it is not my religion, it isn’t going to work for everyone. What I can tell you is that I had to give it all up at once, I had to make the change quickly and with no looking back, because that is what worked for me. It might work for some people, others might need to make changes gradually, still others might not need to change as much, everyone is different and their path must be their own. What I will tell you is that if I can do it, if I can change my life and lifestyle so drastically, and have so much success and find myself growing smaller everyday as I grow wiser and stronger, then anyone can do it.

I didn’t find a magic lamp that did it for me, through my faith and the support of other people I have continued on this path. I think talking about it, making it public and putting it out there, so that people were interested and watching, that made me have to be honest and forced me to either stick with it, or admit defeat and I am not good at admitting defeat, or losing in general, or in giving up in front of people, so I knew my own mind well enough to know that I would rather keep going than to admit I couldn’t do it to other people. Maybe that made the difference this time, so often we go on quiet diets, where we don’t want to mention it, in case it doesn’t work, or people can’t see the results fast enough, and they begin asking. I don’t care if it slows down, as long as I don’t. So, bring on 2017, the new year promises to be a healthier one than I have had in years, and I know I will get to go shopping for new clothes, more than once, and I will move more, and eat less and be healthier and happier and it will be good.

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