As I entered the month of May 2016, I felt positive about losing weight, I also felt positive that I could stick with it this time. I am not sure why this time felt different initially, but it didn’t take long for me to know that my body was behaving differently this time. I did not have the cravings I used to have, I did not wander around looking for something to eat at night. I also really drank a lot of water, and I have continued to drink a lot of water.

I started losing weight almost right away, my body and I coming to an understanding. I found, within just a few short days, that I was no longer retaining water like I had for years, my feet were no longer swollen at night and when I looked down I liked that. My body and I were beginning to work together for what was best for both of us, and my cravings and bad habits were being left behind on the curb, thumb out, waiting for me to pick them up again. I am not going back there, I have even burned that bridge, to keep me from being able to accidentally find myself back there again.

I realize as I write this that I really like to mix ideas up, like in a blender and then put them down on paper, it isn’t my plan, it is just how thoughts come out of my head.

When I started this process, I was the heaviest I had been in my whole life, which is not an easy thing to admit. So, since I am writing this up, maybe I should write a how to book for people who want to know how you get so bad in the first place.