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What’s The Plan?

I am obese, I know it, have been for some time now. So, why, why did I let it get this bad, go this far, and last this long?
I didn’t plan on getting fat.
I could tell you that I never thought I ate that much. Of course, when you don’t think about what you eat, when you eat or why you eat, you will never know if you eat “that” much. I also ate more “junk” than quality and I know that is part of the problem. Lack of exercise or activity also played a part.
I didn’t plan on getting fat.
I could tell you that after 3 children my body didn’t spring back like it used to be, but I didn’t give it a chance. I didn’t fight for it, I didn’t advocate for that thin girl inside me, I consumed her along with those fries and washed the whole thing down with a chocolate shake. (Or was it strawberry?)
I didn’t plan on getting fat.
I could tell you that my metabolism has slowed down, and while that may be true, I was doing nothing to keep it burning for years before it slowed down with age.
I didn’t plan on getting fat.
I could tell you that weight, like age, is just a number. That is true, but I can’t do anything about one and I can do everything about the other.
I didn’t plan on getting fat.
I could tell you that I don’t mind being overweight. I still like myself, I am still warm and loving, and that is true. I love who I am on the inside, but if I am being honest, I am not crazy about who I am on the outside. I am not a good role model at this weight, and I can’t do many of the things I want to do, because my body doesn’t want to.
I didn’t plan on getting fat.
I don’t want to look 29 again. (An age I picked, because I looked great!) I want to be fit, a thin enough person to be healthy and active, I am already happy. I want to not mind pictures of me, or mirrors. I don’t want to pose in a bathing suit with my abs of steel or whatever the popular body area is, I just want to not mind putting on my bathing suit and going for a swim. I don’t want to look like a model, but I wouldn’t mind being a positive role model.
I didn’t plan on getting fat.
I do plan on getting fit.

2 Comments

  1. Another super one. Shared with my momma

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